SakuraMoon

Well, I had a great week. The weather was perfect and we had a good look around. I think we’ve decided that we won’t move though. We loved the town where Darren got the job offers but the jobs just weren’t offering the right kind of money. But it was great having lots of time together to catch up and chat. We even played chess for probably the first time in 3 years! It seems like the only time we spend together is in front of the TV lately. It’s not really good enough. I think I might have to implement a tv-free date night or something.

So anyway, I didn’t do a lot of exercise. I had planned to go for long walks etc … but just didn’t get around to it. Also coke during the day, bacardi at night and takeaways. Hence, I’ve gained weight. How much? Not sure really. I was close to the max on my scales and a few weeks ago was at overload. Well, I’m at overload again. The scales go to 155kg / 341 pounds. So I guess I’ll say that’s where I’m at. Yippee … hardly!

I guess it’s snakes for me and back to the starting line. That’s okay. Time to get started.

I’m a bit annoyed this week. I felt myself coming down with a cold on Monday morning but I didn’t expect it to be as bad as it has been. I have had high temperature, swollen glands, congestion and feel just completely exhausted all week. Hence, I have not done any exercise. I also have fallen off the dieting wagon as the groceries ran out and I haven’t had the energy to go shopping so I have been lazy and getting take away and whatever is easy. I was doing so well too! I even cooked pancakes one day because that’s what I had ingredients for - I don’t even like pancakes! So I have wasted a whole week bingeing on carbs and sitting around feeling sorry for myself, taking naps, watching tv etc.

We are going on holiday for a week on Sunday. We will have to leave home at about 3am to catch the ferry in time. We are going to Tasmania (Australia’s southern most state is an island and it is gorgeous - beaches, mountains, wilderness). Hubby has 2 job offers and we are going to check it out. He’s never even been there before but I love it so I’m pretty excited at the possibility of moving there. And the weather is much milder than it is here, which is nice, and they haven’t had the drought so no water restrictions. I could grow my own vegies!

Anyway, since I haven’t achieved anything this week and I have so much to do in only 2 days, I will probably not blog again before we go. So I wish everyone happy slimming and will see you all in a week or so.

I am a little disappointed with a 3 pound loss. Crazy I know. I just did so well last week and then messed up on the weekend. I had pizza on Friday night at a friends place and then slipped into bad old habits of having a few drinks after dinner the last couple of nights. It’s a shame. Just think how much better my results could have been! But I won’t beat myself up too much. A loss is a loss after all.

 It’s berry season here and every year my sister and I go out to the berry farm and pick our own so it’s much cheaper. We went out on Sunday and picked blueberries and raspberries. They’re so yummy and so good for you too. I love to have them on my cereal in the morning. I also stewed a heap of apples off my Dad’s tree. I figure I have enough fruit in the freezer for at least 3 months worth of breakfast. That’s fantastic. It’s so expensive to buy them from the supermarket. Maybe I will see if Dad has some more apples left on the tree and stew some more - they’re a horrible eating apple but really nice stewed (with equal of course).

 I woke up this morning with a cold, which I’m not too impressed with, but it’s not too bad. Just a sore throat and stuffy nose. So I’m pretty tired and don’t much feel like doing anything today. I haven’t been sleeping too well lately with the heat so maybe I’m a little run down. I was going to count last week as the warm up for the diet and get serious about the exercise this week but maybe I’ll just dust off the pedometer tomorrow and aim for 10,000 steps. And keep counting my calories. I will be away 8 days from this coming Sunday and was planning on taking my pedometer. I don’t mind maintaining while on holidays but I don’t want to gain any back.    

I have had to take my poor baby to the vet this morning as well because she has an ear infection. Huskies are a very complicated dog. They’re so intelligent and not particularly cooperative. She knew we were going to the vet without me even telling her. She growled at me when I put her lead on, when normally she gets really excited. She then parked herself on the couch and wouldn’t get down. I had to drag her out of the house. Then she didn’t want to get in the car. Then when we got to the vet she was fine in the waiting room watching the food, sorry, kittens playing in their cage but as soon as they called her name she planted her feet and I ended up having to carry her into the examination room. She hates the vet ever since we got her fixed. Anyway the vet said we were lucky to catch it early because in another week it would have been really painful for her. Extra lucky I say because we will be away next week and my sister doesn’t pay as much attention as we do.

So that’s me. A little off topic but hey - it’s my blog.

I finally started! Hooray for me. I find the getting started bit the hardest - I am Queen of Procrastination after all. But once I get a bit of momentum up I actually enjoy eating better and getting lots of exercise. Really.

So I ate really well all day yesterday. We did go out for tea and it was a set menu with limited choice so I had a little bit of pasta in napoli sauce, garlic bread, steak and a tiny slice of tiramisu. But I did so well for the rest of the day that I still only used about 1650 calories for the day. I did some exercise too. I did 5 min on the spin bike (still getting used to the hard seat - my bum is so sore!) and I did Jillian Michaels Frontside DVD and managed to do most of the exercises (even if I did have to do the modified version). It was only the dips that I had trouble with because our chairs aren’t suitable and I couldn’t find anything else. Although after some thought, the piano stool would be ideal so will try that next time. Then I did 20 minutes on the treadmill. I was aiming for 30 but my iPod was flat and it was so hot and I am so unfit and the pool was looking at me through the gym room window. It has been around 38`C (0r 100`F) for the last couple of weeks. I really hate the heat. Summer is my least favourite time of the year. So I jumped in the pool and just floated around. It was so nice. Not much fun trying to put on swimmers though when you’re all sweaty and sticky. Did I mention how unfit I am? And my shoulders are really sore from push-ups. I had to do the super-modified version though because I had shoulder problems a few years ago from work and now I just have no strength in them at all. But I got through them and hopefully they will get better slowly.  

I wore my heart rate monitor and I burned 780 calories giving me a total daily deficit of 1615 calories. That’s half a pound. Yippee. So I need to follow up with more good work. Today I will do Jillian’s Backside DVD and 30 minutes on the treadmill. I also have my spin bike in the lounge room so I will try to do 20 minutes tonight while my shows are on. Isn’t Jillian Michaels just the best? I love The Biggest Loser, and don’t get me wrong, Bob’s a total spunk, but Jillian kick’s ass! I bought the first set of DVD’s she released but you kind of need a certain amount of fitness just to start with so I couln’t do it. Then she released some beginners DVD’s last year and my sister bought them for me for Christmas.

Well, I better get going. That exercise isn’t going to do itself - unfortunately. Have a good day everyone.

Hi folks! Well, I’m starting over. Same old story. Every year I resolve to lose weight and get healthy but inevitably end up gaining more. Well not this year! I feel different this year. Kind of like I’m on the verge of a breakthrough (or maybe a breakdown). I will be turning 30 in April and I’m really disappointed with what I’ve done with my life so far. I’m really angry that I’ve let my weight get so out of control and sad that I don’t think I’m worth the effort of taking care of. So this year I have resolved to resolve all of my issues. All of them. Obviously the weight thing is a biggie. I don’t need to get down to my goal weight by the end of the year (In fact I think that’s highly unlikely) but I want to figure out my reasons for overeating and not taking care of myself and establish some good routines to help me through the rest of my life. I also want to be more spiritual in my day to day life and resolve resentments from my childhood and try new things and be a better wife (and a better housekeeper). I want to be a better friend. I also want to sort out the career thing. I have been unemployed for pretty much three years now and I’ve gotta tell you, having no reason to get up each day is getting pretty damn old! I want to be a usful member of society. I’d love to go back to university to study Nutrition and Dietetics.

So 2008 is the year of figuring stuff out.

I was on BuddySlim once before but I guess I fell off the wagon. Oops. But I am determined to make it work this time. I’m sick of seeing life in shades of grey. I want to see in colour.